A Few Thoughts for Tuesday

Sometimes I wonder if my dreams are too big for this world. I wrap myself in them at night and they don’t let me go during the day. I want to believe that there are opportunities for us all to live out what we have wished; that we can reach that personal state of mind that gives us the drive necessary to meet our goals.  I’ve had so many instances in the past couple of year where I’ve wanted to give up and wondered if there was any fight left in me at all to keep going. Somehow, I found reason to try again. I suppose this comes from years of having to fight to have the best life I could and navigate around my circumstances.

Finding your way out of a rut is not always clear, but you simply have to learn to be inventive. While I didn’t have steady work, I found ways to be creative. I made use of my imagination, even when the inspiration wasn’t there. As I get closer to the end of that tunnel, I am remembering that I still have a very important purpose and so much left to accomplish in this world. I know that there are people out there who let go of their dreams and humbly accept reality, and there is nothing wrong with this if that’s what makes you the most comfortable. There is something within my heart however, that won’t let go of my ideals no matter how old I get. As I’m still in my twenties, I suppose I’m still young, but I have remained a child at heart and I believe that I always will. I think that living in a world where I could access my imagination would be too difficult for me. The words and stories contained within are far too integral to my existence.

When I see violence and negativity in the world, it stirs my heart in a way that makes me wish that I could do something to bring about more peace. Someday, I hope that my words will do just that. I want to reach out to the dreamers of the universe and show them that a few failures does not mean we have to accept the death of our dreams. We have to keep fighting for them, if only because we have important messages to share with others through our art or through the pull of our spirit that lies behind the work that we do every day. I have moments where I feel so separate from the world around me...so detached from the space I live in and what surrounds me. I realize how alone I am in my thoughts of making my dreamer’s world into reality. I have a mission though, and that mission is to live from my heart. No matter what I have to sacrifice, or how many times I feel isolated, I will live the rest of my life fighting to fulfill it.